So what now?

One of the things that I thought while I was working is that I am doing exactly the same thing. I wake up early in the morning, take a bath, eat, go to work, watch T.V / read book, sleep, then wake up again in the morning.  It becomes a routinary for me. Also, earning doesn't help at all because when I earn, a part of it goes to my parents, to my monthly savings, extra expenses, leisure,  but again go back to work and wait for the end of the month to have my salary. I came to realize that I am exactly going nowhere. I'm just living in a cycle.

While I was on a break contemplating about life, I thought that I do not want this routine for the rest of my life. I have to do something about it or else I'll die with only purpose of having clothes, survived, enjoyed a few pleasure in life, and then nothing. It's will all be like as if I have never existed. And the only proof of my existence is my grave stone. I might as well put there "This certifies that a certain Leah existed".

When I came into realization that that's all I am going to do for the next 10 years of my life or so, I thought not. You see, there's this desire in me to step out of being someone in the background. Someone who works according to someone's dictation, work for me to survive, work just to have my fill. NO. I can't. I just can't tread the water for the rest of my life, I have to emerge from it.

So I was driven by these questions, and now suffice it to say that I have few answers. I cannot say the answers because some may not exactly understand my philosophy. But I'll mention one important answer: Contribute to the world.

Honestly, in my opinion, it's not just okay to live in this world filling our only needs and wants. It's not enough to just live and have family. We have to contribute to our world. I haven't done it yet, but it's because I am starting. But I'll say that it's one of my important plans. I need to touch someone's life. I need to build the world that my God has entrusted to me. I need to give hope for my brothers and sisters because my Dad wants me to do this. Now, this is the purpose that had struck in my mind. I cannot just live my life but I have to live for others and for our world.

I might say that this "wisdom" that I have acquired is given to me by my Father and best friend, God. I had been praying to him about life and my purpose of existence. And I believe that through this everyday wisdom I get is His way of talking to me, of guiding me as His daughter, and best friend. I believe that God wanted me to be like this.

Thanks Dad! I won't let you down.

Being employed

This monday or probably Tuesday I'll start working for a multinational company. I am actually excited about it because it's a brand new start for me because first, I'll be able to start all over again. Second, I can start building my savings plan. Third, I'll learn new things. I am excited for my first two years there. I know there are a lot of things that will happen but I am all positive. I also have plans already but there are all drafts in my head -- if God is so willing, He'll be able to help me construct it and execute my plans.

I am excited for what awaits me. God willing, this will all come out as planned but if not I know He has a better plan than I have.

stream of thoughts at 6:03 PM

If there's anything that I admire so far in blogging it's Stephen Fry. I like Stephen Fry's wit. I wish I have the same cleverness as he has. I am saying that because I am blogging right now and so far I have been thinking of what to blog about. Since, nothing so substantial seem to cross my mind, I might as well be spontaneous. Don't we love spontaneity?

And since we are already in the topic of blogging I once hanged-out with this two people and they both have this little notebooks with them and whatever interesting comes out of our topic they'd jot it down, saying "Now I have something to blog about". Hmm ... Maybe I ought to do the same. I just find it amusing that they really have those notebooks with them. Isn't that a little OC, no?

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Let me just get my bar of Kit-Kat. In blogging most people talk about their life. To tell something about my life, I am still as I was yesterday, a week ago, and the last few months. I think my life is a little bit boring. I don't have the life like of those in the T.Vs that I watch. I don't slay dragons, chase bad guys, getting into a social event, being chased by photographers, not even diagnosing patients. I am just me. Being me, isn't really interesting. I wake up in the morning, poach eggs, prepare myself a coffee, read the news, and just go on into my life routinely. Things happen, just as the same. I wish something exciting happens. Like in one of those movies. A simple girl who has a simple life then suddenly went to a different turn and her life changed drastically. Like Harry Potter, like the guy that James McAvoy played in Wanted that kind of change. hahaha!

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I'll just get a glass of water but to say I must admit that something has changed in my life. But nothing as exciting as I have mentioned earlier. What has changed is the way I think. I changed right after I was introduced into Create Abundance a few months ago. I think that group had ridiculously change my life into 90º turn. Now I can say that I am more prepared to face my future -- that is financially speaking. But there's  more to discover about life really. I haven't been able to experience a lot since I am mostly sheltered. I cannot really say that I am tough because I haven't been toughen a bit by world yet. But I am more than ready (and so is my heart) for whatever may come.

Hahaha sounds like as if I am ready to get into a fight eh? Well, life's tough. It's a survival, me thinks. :D