Just like now.

10:06 PM

Sometimes just like now I have a lot of ideas that I want to write but I couldn't get them out of my head and type them all here. Why is that? But you know when I have  a lot of idea and I had my journal and pen, I can get it out so effortlessly. I wonder why.

I guess this is the because I am always comfortable writing in my journal than here. hmp.

10:08 PM

Oy, whaddya know Castle season 1 episode 2 has just finished downloading. Time to have some Castle' lovin'. I am now currently downloading Merlin season 3 episode 5. Merlin just keeps getting better and better. And oy, I am also downloading Robin Hood with Russell Crowe and Cate Blanchett. I suddenly missed it right after I watched Merlin. :|

And probably I'll soon download The Devil Who Wears Prada I just suddenly missed it. :[ Well I wish no Optical Media Board is reading this, I don't want to get caught!

Hmmm another thing why is it that it doesn't feel like Christmas? And I suddenly missed the song, It's Beginning to Look A Lot Like Christmas ♪  I am going to listen to it even though it doesn't look like one here. It seems like it's an ordinary day. We usually have decorations as soon as September comes :( Oh this also reminds me of the Polar Express movie and this particular quote:

At one time most of my friends could hear the bell, but as years passed it fell silent for all of them. Even Sarah found one Christmas that she could no longer hear its sweet sound.

Don't you think it's right? That we are starting to be Sarah too? That we can no longer feel Christmas when we reach a certain point? :( Nooooo!!! It can't be. It just can't be. I love Christmas.

10:16 PM

Dang this transferring of video takes longer than usual. Oh well, I am going to search for that song as this loads.




This really makes me happy ♪

10:19 PM

Oy, there it's done. I can finally watch Castle! See ya!

Getting into Castle

I must admit that yes I am impulsive. I just got into the "Castle" fandom-ship just right after I finished the first episode. Thanks to my friend Nikka who introduced me to the series.

".. [I]t's a mystery, crime detective story. The murderer kills the victim just like how this famous writer does his story"  Nikka told me while we were enjoying the dawn.We just finished jogging and we were talking about the series that we were watching. I don't know how we actually got to that topic. It's just we jump from one topic to another. I think we got there when out of sudden, she told me that she's watching Merlin.

When she gave me that little information about how the story goes, my curiosity pique. It reminded me of "Urban Legend" film, where there was a pattern for killing. I really have a thing for that kind of story. While Nikka was telling me more about the series, I told myself, heck I should try this one. So one lazy afternoon sunday, while I was lounging and browsing different sites, I thought about downloading it and seeing it for myself.

It was a zing! I love it. The chemistry between Beckett and Castle was amazing.The first few minutes already got me. Then watching the entire episode made me fall in love. It was just ... super!

*sigh* I can't wait for the rest of the episode. But for now, while the second episode is downloading I might as well burn calories.

Last, seriously, I hope I can get into a work just like theirs because it seems like a hell of a cool job. :]

Planning ahead!

 

Okay so since I have said that I did not really like my course, so I chose the one closest to my heart -- marketing. Plus, this is what Robert Kiyosaki adviced: to take up jobs that will teach me not only to give me money. I have taken this one as I know that I will gain A LOT. I know I will learn big time here and I will be able to experience first hand about negotiations and how to do marketing in different levels. Furthermore, being exposed to people will be a benefit.

I know God has a purpose why I couldn't seem to take the other listings posted, probably He wanted to direct me there. hahahaha! But oh well, we'll never know until I get there. I am excited! I hope, hope, hope, hope that I will get there. He has great plans for me, I know, and I am sure of it.

For now all I am doing is learning more about investing, entrepreneurship, being financially literate, and pattern (if there is, like what Caldwell said) of success. 

My sister told me to make my own destiny, to make my story and I am making one now. And this will be the place for me to write it down.

Update more later. Ciao!

Frustrated

I can't believe it. I just can't believe it.

This is just not my day. Apparently, I seem to be the most unfortunate there is. Well I wouldn't really say that I am unfortunate because what my problems are, is probably too little for others who are suffering from hunger or from someone in brink of death. But what I am saying is that I am unfortunate to what others seem to be having now. And I say that I am unfortunate because I feel like I am hitting rock bottom. I am frustrated beyond belief. If this is God's work to test me and to challenge my patience He is getting a 1-0 in favor him. But that doesn't mean I am quitting. I am just going to give this day to Him and probably work on what I am missing. a;dapdkopawdkpawkdpowkdp

You want to know the reason for my frustration? It's just that I have a BIG idea and I can't seem to execute it because it's not yet the time. Plus, I don't have enough sources to get this to work. I know, you'd say "what do you mean not yet the time? there's no such thing as perfect time, so start working on your plan!". But you see I'm still in the planning stage. I am on my first step of the stairs. But what frustrates me is that I am taking too little steps to get it started. I want to take big steps but I just don't know how!  Second, sources ... I need to have this sources in order for me to get started. I can't and I couldn't seem to get ahead. :(

I'm sorry for the mindless rant. I am just frustrated that's all. Lord, forgive me. I know.

What should I do???

What Should I Do?

I was sitting on our couch thinking of how life had been draggingly slow for me. I was torn between doing what I want and doing what is expected of me. Seriously, this was starting to get into my nerves. Every time I take an overview of my life I was torn of what I should be doing and what I really want.

When I graduated it seemed like I was in an open field. Here I am living in a big world! I thought I can finally be whatever I wanted to be. I can be an F1 racing driver, a reporter, a field researcher, a talk show host, or live my dream becoming a writer ... the opportunities are limitless! It's ZENITH! But then again, how do I exactly get that? How can I BECOME ONE OF THOSE?

That question was like a freezing cold bucket of water and ice splashed into my face waking me up from my dream. Now, so it seems, I am stuck to what I should be ... an IT person. Someone who's stuck in front of the computer debugging, writing codes, and all of those bland things I have been doing back in college. I can't. I just can't be stuck inside an air-conditioned office fixing, writing codes for the rest of my life. I need a little spice. I wanted action.

Just when I did not expect it, an unsolicited advice was handed to me. You see while I was having the usual idle time of my life watching Dateline, this Lebron James commercial was featured during Boyet Sison's sports news. The commercial is about "...the expectations others may have of him (Lebron James) versus the expectations he has of himself...".

I thought, wow did Nike just gave me an advice? That now in my question of What I should do: Should I do what I want or should I do what is expected of me? They [Nike] just told me, "JUST DO IT".

The answer might a little vague but I am sure it wanted me to do what I ought should be. And I am taking that advice and I'll just do it. I'll take a plunge. Whatever is going to happen, let it be. Think of me as a madwoman now, world. But just so you wait. I'll do it and you'll see it.

Dum Spiro, Spero

I always have felt like as if I'm on the edge, just waiting for my time to hit the stage. You know? I am waiting for my cue to take the stage and win the crowd, that sort of thing. And when that happen, I am telling you my faceless reader, I'll win the crowd with so much grace they'll give me a standing ovation. :P

For now, while I am waiting for my time, I'd rather write whatever is happening on my background.

So who am I? I'm the one who wears green sneakers. I go to different places to understand life on other's perspective. I love what life has to offer for me both negative and positive. But I also get frustrated easily. I love learning, reading, writing, and listening.

Last, I believe that we are born for a reason and we just need to find that reason.

Dum Spiro, Spero. While I breathe, I hope.