I miss you surfer boy. You who loves drinking snapple. :(
I realized that if I write here, I wouldn't bother writing in my journal and vice-versa. :| dang. Will post here again next time. I was supposed to be watercoloring today but skipped it as my highschool friends had invited me to go out with them. I missed hanging out with them. I love them all. I love my friends. I may not be always around but I guarantee them that I'll always be their friend. Whatever happens.
♥
I'm starting to miss him. I miss you, snapple boy.
I cried watching National Geographic Channel's Great Migrations. I cried because the animals never fails to make me soft. It didn't help that the cinematography was magical and narration was poetic.
I tried to distract myself from worrying about my application in this multinational company that I applied to. I don't want to even think or even consider the idea that I may not be getting a job offer because it's really my target. I tried not thinking something negative about it but dang even though how much I try, the thought has been nagging me since earlier and now it's starting to depress me. Please, I want it so badly. Please, God?
10:29 PM
I am thinking of writing my story again but I don't know how my story would go. Shiesh this kind of project never really last in my hands. I mean whenever I think about writing a story I couldn't stick with it because when a day passes I'd suddenly thought of another of story with a different plot. The project, therefore, was short lived. :[
And I can't do short lived stories if I want to be a writer. I also have to practice my writing. I write like a 10 year old kid.
10:34 PM
I need to do something substantial in my life. I cannot live forever like this. I need to find an organization that I can be active on. Do something that matters to someone. Not just to me. It's just that I really believe that we are born because we have a purpose not just to live.
I am thinking of being an environmentalist hmmm ... but I also wanted to take home for the aged as a charity. :/
10:37 PM
I think I should go. I'm really starting to feel sleepy and I'm kinda depressed and feeling a bit down. I think I'd sleep and hope for a better day tomorrow.
10:48 PM
This entry makes my head ache. hahahaha! I mean, it's kind whine-y and I contradict myself too much. But blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
I'm still waiting for Castle to finish. When Castle finishes, I'll be watching it then Gossip Girl. I thought of catching up with this series even though I am way behind the season. I'm only in season 3, but hey it's not yet too late right?
Anyway, for now, I am going to watch Ted's show. I didn't watch it yesterday because I wanted to sleep early. Sorry love. (Pretending like he can read this is becomes fun!) :P
Oh creeps. I really should shut up and stop dictating what I am downloading.
7:15 PM
Whenever I check this fan-blog's email that I am moderating, it never fails to make me feel anxious. Anxious because I don't know if a mail will surprise me. You know, nut fans they exists.
7:43 PM
This short story that I'm reading gives me an idea that something is going to happen soon. I mean something ... er ... sexual. It' awkward and I feel weird. bwahahahha!
I was a bit distracted because I have to help someone upgrade their firefox. :) Oh well back to reading.
I noticed that I no longer read enthusiastically like I used before. It scares me to think that reading may no longer be as interesting to me as it used to. :( I need to get back to my own "reading" mood before I totally stopped reading.
For now, I am reading Haruki Murakami's The Elephant Vanishes. Murakami's books are interesting it's just that it's so unfortunate that my attention span seems lessening. Shiesh.
Oy, I am looking forward to next week. I think next week holds something very important for me, something life changing? :) hehehe!
