Minutes of my life: Great Migrations + random shallow things in my life

10:15 PM

I cried watching National Geographic Channel's Great Migrations. I cried because the animals never fails to make me soft. It didn't help that the cinematography was magical and narration was poetic.



see the still images here Clicky

** save the animals. :]

10:26 PM

I tried to distract myself from worrying about my application in this multinational company that I applied to. I don't want to even think or even consider the idea that I may not be getting a job offer because it's really my target. I tried not thinking something negative about it but  dang even though how much I try,  the thought has been nagging me since earlier and now it's starting to depress me. Please, I want it so badly. Please, God?

10:29 PM

I am thinking of writing my story again but I don't know how my story would go. Shiesh this kind of project never really last in my hands. I mean whenever I think about writing a story I couldn't stick with it because when a day passes I'd suddenly thought of another of story with a different plot. The project, therefore, was short lived. :[

And I can't do short lived stories if I want to be a writer. I also have to practice my writing. I write like a 10 year old kid.

10:34 PM

I need to do something substantial in my life. I cannot live forever like this. I need to find an organization that I can be active on. Do something that matters to someone. Not just to me.  It's just that I really believe that we are born because we have a purpose not just to live.
I am thinking of being an environmentalist hmmm ... but I also wanted to take home for the aged as a charity. :/

10:37 PM

I think I should go. I'm really starting to feel sleepy and I'm kinda depressed and feeling a bit down. I think I'd sleep and hope for a better day tomorrow.

10:48 PM

This entry makes my head ache. hahahaha! I mean, it's kind whine-y and I contradict myself too much. But blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

10:55 PM

♥ oy!

What an awkward shit.

I am currently writing a cover letter for a position that I don't know if I really wanted to take. The reason why I wanted to take it is because I think it will be fun, plus I think it will be substantial. However, one of the reason why I wanted to keep myself from applying in it is because of practical issues.

I am still a little disoriented as I am suffering from headache. It bloody feel like as if someone just hit me with a sledgehammer.

Oh yeah, I wish someone just did; at least that would have done justice.

Okay here I go. Whatever may happen, let it be.

Contrary, I stopped writing my cover letter for that position. The thing is, I just want to be there just for the heck of it.

Would you get yourself into a job that does not compensate you than you deserve? Would you get yourself into a job just because you think that it would make you understand life better? Does anyone do that? Because you see that would be my reason why I wanted to join the team. Heck.

Sometimes I am afraid of how nut I can be.

Now I am writing back again but I don't know if I am doing it right. My letter seem to be a little shallow.

I should be unconventional. Seriously.

I am withholding my cover-letter and CV. I already have everything but I could not submit it.


WHAT SHOULD I DO??

Drat, mom came in and I told her about it and she said something negative and told me that it's hard ... blah blah blah. :| I guess that's my hint.

Minutes of my life: bloody fiction, credit card, and God.

5:22 PM

Whenever I watch Merlin or anything that has to do with magic, supernatural, or super powers I couldn't help but to wish that I got one too. I like it because it seems cool. Plus, having powers would mean I could save the world too. Now, wouldn't that be cool? :P Pissh.. I'm really starting to lose grasp of reality.

Anyway I haven't taken a bloody bath yet. I didn't because I have no where to go; but since I am bored and there's nothing to do but to bloody hang around like some sod, I should hit the shower then. Oh geez.

5:25 PM

I am currently downloading Castle season 1 and it's still in 20%. I have been downloading this since 8 AM. I wish it could finish soon because I can't wait. I am starting to get all the Beckett and Castle ship-plague. Well I ought to go now. Bye bye! Update laters.

5:43 PM

I just finished taking my bath. On my way to the shower, dad asked me "Do you have an extra cash to pay for your credit card? The credit card company will be sending letter soon". I told him that I have an extra cash. I should have learned more about Robert Kiyosaki just before I bought the iTouch. I bought one as a reward for myself, but I should have known better. The thought that I have to pay for it in this trying times seems like a heavy cross on my back.

I am still on my towel. I would be praying right after. I most of time do, sometimes I forget it and sometimes I do it intentionally because I was procrastinating. But believe me when I forget it, it's mostly because I have forgotten. Before I say goodbye, I always thought about what Hades (Ralph Fiennes) said in the movie, "Clash of Titans". That Zeus feeds on the people's prayer. I suddenly thought if God is the same. I thought about writing our parish priest, but he seems somehow snobbish; or maybe it's just me?

Anyhow if I could ask Pope, I'd ask him to tell me that God isn't vain. I don't want to think that He is. But if in case, I don't really care. I love God. He had always been good to me.

Last, I am thinking of making an entry addressing to people I know about. I'll probably make one after. :) I'll call this kind of entry as "Minutes of my life".

I'll update more later. See you! I'll remember you in my prayers.

5:53 PM

I am not yet done praying. I just wanted to say before I finally end this minute that I am tempted to apply in ANC's Storyline as a part of their production team. I think it will be cool. But I don't know, but I want to. The only thing that stops me is my being practical. But I should try right? I mean it's better to try it than not really try at all. I should just submit and see what happens next.

Oh I will, right after I pray. And I am leaving for real this time. See you later.